The inner trajectory of a soldier: self-dialogue from coldness to self-awakening


 

In a world almost devoured by war and tasks, there is a character named “Trigger”. Her name may mean the precise calculation between life and death, or it may represent the decisiveness of ruthless killing. She is the top soldier of the Oberus team, and has the ability of inductive electric properties, making her an unrivaled existence in the eyes of everyone. She has only one task: fight, defeat all opponents, and complete orders. However, when we go deep into her inner world, we will find that as a soldier, Trigger is far from being a simple cold machine, but a soul that has experienced countless mental struggles, an existence that hides all emotions deep inside.

When Trigger first appeared in front of the player, everyone was shocked by her coldness. Her every move revealed a rational and cruel attitude. There is no extra emotional fluctuation, no care and dependence on companions, as if she is just a mechanized tool, existing in this battlefield. Her appearance always has a hint of inviolable coldness, and her eyes are deep, as if any emotional fluctuations have nothing to do with her. Every word she said was short and precise, as if to reduce unnecessary emotional interference.

However, what is hidden behind this coldness? Perhaps only those who really understand her can realize that this hard indifference on the outside is the defense line wrapped by her deepest inner fragility. Trigger was not born like this, but was honed to be like this. In her past, she was an ordinary person with emotions and desires, but these emotions were gradually eroded in her battles and training. Every charge in the battle and every completion of the mission made her more and more away from the person she used to be.

She is a member of the Oberus team. Every member of this team carries a heavy mission and task. Their responsibilities make it impossible for them to have any rest and no time to pay attention to personal emotions. In such an environment, Trigger gradually became numb. Every day of training, her emotions were forced to be locked in her heart, and she lost any memory of warmth, family affection and care. She always put herself in the indifferent battle. Her only purpose was to complete the mission, and emotions seemed to have become the pain point she was most reluctant to touch.

The training and missions from childhood to adulthood have honed her into a fearless and unshakable warrior. However, it is this outward toughness that conceals the loneliness and emptiness deep in her heart. Trigger has almost no chance to experience normal life. She is immersed in fighting and training every day, and the only thing she can touch is the cold battlefield. She has no friends, no relatives, and even whether she still has real emotions has become unclear. Every time the battle is over, the pain and fatigue on her body cannot cover up her empty heart.

Although Trigger is an invincible strongman in the eyes of outsiders, her inner fragility makes her unable to transcend her emotional shackles. She fights to escape the pain and emptiness in her heart. She is afraid to face these emotional fluctuations because she knows that once she lets these emotions show, her fragility will be exposed. In her eyes, emotions are fatal. It will make her lose her calm and reason and make her uncontrollable.

However, as time goes by, Trigger’s heart begins to change quietly. In one mission and battle after another, she gradually begins to feel the pressure of loneliness. She began to doubt whether she could suppress her emotions forever, whether she could always stay awake in the cold. Although she never showed her weakness, she could no longer ignore the deep emptiness in her heart. She longed for warmth and someone to understand her pain, but these emotions made her dare not approach because she was afraid that they would drag her into the unknown abyss.

With the contact with her companions and the advancement of the mission, Trigger’s heart gradually changed subtly. She began to realize that she was not an island. She began to feel the care and support of her companions. Although she still did not dare to rely on them completely, her heart gradually fluctuated. She began to think quietly in her heart that if she could learn to accept the care of others, perhaps she would no longer need to continue to bear all the pain and loneliness.

Fighting was once her only outlet, but now it has become a bridge for her to talk to herself. Every victory no longer just means the completion of the mission, it is more like a journey of self-identification and redemption. In this world full of battles and dangers, Trigger began to truly realize that a cold appearance was not the only way for her to survive. She could choose to feel the world and accept the emotions that she had once rejected.

This path of self-awakening is full of pain and struggle, but it is also the only way for her to grow and transform. From a cold warrior to a human who gradually accepts herself, Trigger’s inner world began to change profoundly. She is no longer that indifferent machine, but a flesh-and-blood individual, a soul that longs for real emotions.

In the end, whether Trigger’s transformation will become the climax of her story is still an unknown mystery. However, it is certain that her story is not just a story of battles and missions, but also a story about human nature, emotions and self-exploration. In the future plot, players will continue to walk side by side with Trigger, witnessing her from coldness to softness, witnessing how she faces her inner fragility, and finally finds her own redemption.